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[May 23 06 ` 11 57 am] |
13 years of schooling is now at an end; however, graduating is not the end, rather the beginning of something remarkable.
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[Dec 10 05 ` 2 43 pm] |
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I GOT INTO COLLEGE!
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[Nov 15 05 ` 5 44 pm] |
Jb, Norman and Ben are my heroes.
The Casey Brewer Band has officially started.
Brace yourselves...
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[Sep 17 05 ` 10 36 am] |
why my life rules/why i'm the happiest person ever:
i've been so busy but with such good things latly. getting into rollins is looking better. i have a show at the social on wednesday. i got a car! my brothers progress report was better than mine and that just makes me smile. i'm recording soon. i had coffee with kirby and the best conversations. i love seeing how well she's doing and how smart/funny/drivin she is. it's so encouraging. i'm visiting jesse walsh in exactly 12 days! i love all my new friends. i love how i've ran into so many old friends that it is almost creepy. meeting chris hall for the first time and being able to hang out and have ice cream/mcdonalds like we've known eachtother forever was so much fun. i love being with shannon and stephen and seeing how happy they are. i love breakfast every thursday morning with my first period friends, and teacher for that matter. i love our waitress rosi who loves us and gives us free coffee. my music and shows have been going better than ever. jb plays a huge role in that. i love jb, too. the rocket summer is coming soon! i might be going on three seperate mission trips by the end of the summer. i love my church and i love orangewood youth group and hanging out with nick. i'm so excited to be a part of jenn's girl bible study and slumber party! i'm actully excited about homecoming and have the most wonderful date. dress up days are going to be awesome. i get to wear a wet suit to school on monday which is going to be pretty sweet. my sister is in town. hearing from my college friends makes my day. theres a music/jam club starting at school with the best boys ever. i can feel fall settling in. i love being a senior and expanding and growing and learning and knowing next year i'll be in college. so many good things are happening that i don't have time to worry or be sad. this is such a promising and exciting time in my life and i am pleased to see that i am living it to the fullest. i absolutly love this.
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[Sep 10 05 ` 7 55 am] |
rock the universe was wonderful as usual. it always amazes me how many people religion and music can draw. i love being in an envirorment that's positive and everyone there is just as happy as me. i find it inspiring; religiously, musically, personally. but when i was there, i began to realize that this is the beginning of the chain of events that will be labeled as "the last ___." my actual first yearly tradtion, since 6th grade, over. for the first time last night, i felt like a senior. knowing that this would be my last time, at least as a high school kid, to go as a youth, a yearly tradition, and realizing next year, i won't. will the rush of jumping around, and teasing, and ice cream, and singing, will all of those subconscious events that just happen, still be the same? this time next year, there will be no youth group, no camp, no RTU, no car wash, no "wow" morning hosted my wonderful mother, "where should we go to lunch?" every sunday morning. and yes, i know, college will bring bigger, better things, but it will not replace those memories. it is a very promising, but disheartening emotion. change is coming at full throttle and it's hard to keep up. i graduate in 8 months. 8 months! forgive me for soaking with "emoness" but it was something that just stood out in my mind. i know this is normal for a senior to feel like this but is it too early? i'm not going very far away at all, but still. it is so hard for me to comprehend that in less than a year, my friends and i, especially those who i grew up with in church, the ones that i will even know for the rest of my life, those who are like siblings, like family, will be parting ways. strange.
p.s. i might get to go visit jesse!!!
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| may angels lead you in. |
[Aug 27 05 ` 5 44 pm] |
let go of your grudges, all of them. you never know what could happen, who you could lose, or who you may hurt if you continue to live in resentment. live in forgiveness. live by faith. i am so thankful that i swallowed my pride in time.
he was such a great man.
please keep the Bass family in your prayers.
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| their absence is loud |
[Aug 19 05 ` 8 17 pm] |
after months of anticipation, it came and went. i said goodbye to the three most influential, wonderful people in my life. i am numb and emotionally drained but excited to see what will happen next in their lives. each is going to do incredible things and has had a unique and sentimental impact on my life. i am forever changed.
to my three-
i love you all more than a stupid livejournal post can ever explain. you have played such a flawless role in my life. you have been such a great influence. and i am going to miss you more than you know. i hope to see you soon. i am here for you always. just a call away. thank you for the memories, the laughs, the strength. thank you for everything. every little thing.
<3
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| will's. |
[Jul 13 05 ` 1 03 am] |
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never, have i ever, felt so alive on stage as i did last night at will's. it was thrilling, reviving, intoxicating. to those of you in the audience, i have never felt such a strong connection before as i did with you all. and for all who were there, wished me good luck, have supported me in the past, or simply kept me in mind last night, thank you. you all are too amazing.
aside from the high and rush of just being up there, i was surprised by old, wonderful friends, saw those who are at every single show, and realized how true the term "best friends forever" really is. it was an emotional night on and off stage and for all of those who made it possible, i don't know how to repay you.
jb. you were amazing. thank you so, so much. i am so excited to continue working with you.
and a very special happy birthday to my sister and chris <33
( will's )
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[Jun 27 05 ` 6 35 am] |
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and what a perfect beach day it was.
i am now fasinated with rainbow/tie-dyed clouds.
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[May 16 05 ` 7 00 pm] |
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A Prayer For Owen Meany is the most gorgeous thing I have ever read.
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[Apr 13 05 ` 6 05 am] |
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BATTLE OF THE BANDS:
This friday, the 15th.
Lake Mary High School, auditorium.
7pm, 5$.
I'm in it! Go see.
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| You know you're sick when... |
[Mar 16 05 ` 7 25 am] |
- You're a food lover and you arn't even hungry.
- Your favorite beverage, sweet tea, is too sweet to drink.
- You've watched Titanic, Flubber (shut up), Aladdin, Austin Powers 1,2 and 3, The Prince of Egypt, Seasons 4 and 5 of Friends, The Stepford Wives, The Lion King and Cool Runnings in the last 3 days alone.
- Your eyeballs hurt when you move them because of your massive headache.
- You can't get out of bed to go to the doctor.
- Your entire body aches.
- You actully want to shower.
- You laugh, you go into a coughing/sneezing/achey/crying frenzy...(Boston you win.)
- This is the first time you've really had the energy to actully LiveJournal/Myspace it.
- YOU ACTULLY WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL!
Despite being absolutly miserable and disgusting, I have some wonderful people in my life to come visit me and cheer me up. And little presents like handmade cards, crackers, a balloon with a bumble bee and a bird in a house with a fence...gum, jolly ranchers, a ring pop and the best of all, HUGS! <3 <3 <3
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I am in the beginnig process of writing/composing/directing a new song. It's going to have string's and full intruments and a choir. That's right, a choir. Crazy, I know, but I WILL make it happen. So if anyone is interested in singing or plays an instrument let me know. I'd love to have you be a part of it.
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I took the SAT over the weekend and was really bummed out about it because I felt as if I well..bombed it..and I was being a baby over it which I know was rediculous but my mom, who is really good at the inspirtation/keep on trucking speaches, just pulled this quote out of a devotional book and I find it quite appropiate:
"Hope makes an extraordinary difference. Academic performance of freshman at the University of Pennsylvania were predicted more accuratly by tests that measured their levels of optimism than by their SAT scores or high school grades. Indeed, people who are hopeful evidence less depression than others as they maneuver through life in pursuit of their goals, are less anxious in general, and have fewer emotional distresses. The conviction that our effort makes a difference and the we are not victims of circumstances is what keeps us persisting in the face of setbacks. It saves us from apathy, hopelessness, and despair"
While I am not one to usually compliment myself, I have to say I like my optimism and positive attitude towards life, and I believe that is what has saved and kept me "sane" the last few years and will continue to do so throughout my life. I know several of you would love to kill me as I walk into school at the god forsaken hour of 7 in the morning with a huge smile on my face, giggling because of well..absolutly nothing. Or how I use the words and phrases such as 'Hoopla,' 'Got emm,' 'Walk the plank!' and 'You've awakened the Beast!!' Or how I love Disney movies. Or how I think I'm cool when I'm being ganster with my Kryspter. Or how I am a carbon copy of Pheobe. Or my "Casey Dance," or calling my english teacher Mama and begging her to come to lunch with me and Crowther, or getting so excited for Frosty Thursday's with Freaky, or freaking out with Kat when we knew the bible answer was "PETER!!!," or when I invite little cowgirls to sing Red Neck Woman with me, or how I rarely bathe, or how I trip/fall/break things, or how I'm a candy/chocolate/sweet tea/ice cream addict, or I mix weird foods togethers, or I am too quirky for my own good, or how I am convinced I am extreme because I co-stole a plastic plant, or how happy I was that I finally obtained a blob fron Sugar Sugar, or how I live at the river, or how I mix up Antelope/Kantalope/Cantalope (laugh it up Khris), or how I have silly arguments with Chris debating whether a coconut is a nut or a friut, or how I deliver Boston mini cookies in my sweet elf boots, or how I wear the same damn jeans everyday of my life until they are no longer being held together by the seams, or my giant backpack that is too big for my body, or getting so into the boogaloo that I break into a sweat, and how I detest jello. All of these weird things make up me. And as rediculous as I am, I can't help it. And honestly, I don't want to help it. I look over these moments and silly as it is, these memories help make up my life and I love my life. And I love everyone in my life. And I am happy.
I will now get off my soap box.
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[Feb 28 05 ` 6 27 pm] |
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No matter what I do or how much concern I may have for a certain individual, despite the weathered relashionship and hardships they put me through time and time again, they will never appriciate my forgiveness, my efforts and my chances. Not to mention me.
And I accept and am ok with that.
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| show tomorrow |
[Feb 25 05 ` 4 21 am] |
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Me, Mere Surmise and Fairweather. The 26th @ Ozone Cd's in Altamonte on 436. 7pm. 8$. It's more of an acoustic night so come be mellow with me. I'd love too see new friends, old friends, lame friends (you know who you are), etc.
Hey, we have 57 days of school left.
And yes, I really am awake at 4:26 in the morning. I think I need to start going to bed later.
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[Feb 13 05 ` 3 28 pm] |
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Show on February 26th w/ Mere Surmise @ Ozone Cd's ; 7 pm ; 8$
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this one is a cancer benefit show so come help out this great cause.
the show with crowther went real well. chapter's is closing saddly but there will be new venues.
the weather has been beautiful lately.
things are going very well in general and i am very thankful for that, as well as those friends who i have in my life right now that make everything so wonderful.
( you've earned this )
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